When My Heart Speaks.

There comes a time in your walk with God where the road seems impassable.  Obstacles too tough, mountains too high, and no one around to help.  This is sometimes a time where the enemy will come in and try to destroy you.  Destroy your faith in God, your trust in people, and doubts will flood in.  You try your hardest to swim, run, jump, and climb.  Its in those quiet dark moments of complete and helpless times and He is there with you. You are caressed in His embrace, held so tightly that it becomes easier to breath. When the world is beating you down and all you feel is this heaviness, He

is there.  When you feel alone and doubt is banging on the walls, He is there.  He is there to pick you up and carry you when you feel that your feet won't work. When you feel that there is no way to move forward, He is there.  It is there when being carried by Him that you begin to feel your faith become stronger, your worries light, and the feeling of being alone cease to exist. Know that you are not alone, He is there and will always be there. You just have to reach out.  He is constant, He in forgiving, He is loving, He is kind, He is non judgmental, He is light to the world of darkness, He is your rock, He is and always will be there. 

There's a song that I have had on constant repeat for about 2 weeks now. I cling to this song. Songs speak to my heart in ways that people can't.  I'm sure you've heard it, but have you sat and really listened to it.  Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) by Hillsong United.  I absolutely adore this song.  When I hear it, I imagine God walking beside me and guiding me through the darkness, where all I have is Him.  I feel my soul begin to swell up with love and affection and trust in knowing that He is my guide and He will never fail. 

One day I will meet Him and see the one who carried me through everything. I will see my rock, my love, my Father, my God.  It will be the most comforting feeling in the world to just collapse in His arms and be wrapped up in a warm embrace, knowing that I am home. I have ran the race, conquered major obstacles, strengthened my faith, and helped people find their way God.  I will see those who I lost a long time ago, see those whom I've only read about, and see all the wonderful splendors of heaven,. A place where the enemy can no longer creep in.  A place where I will live forever and sing praises to the one who created me.  Created all of me; my imperfections, my love, my awkwardness, a heart with need to help people and be with people. I was created in His image with His love. "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;" Psalm 139:14

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Trying To Remain Calm In The Chaos!

      Wow! Its been a really long time since I wrote on here and I've realized that I've missed it.  A lot of things have changed since then.  As life would over the course of 2 years! First up...we had another baby! Our sweet boy, Elias Knox, was born September 10, 2013! He has been a joy since the beginning, except those 3 months of colic.  We were all loosing it during that time, but we found some things to make it better.  Like rocking like a mental patient from 9:00pm-11:30pm while watching Law and Order. Don't worry he was too little to actually know what was going on.  He just turned a year old and we had a blast celebrating his wonderful life, so far!

Look I'm not to best blogger in the world but I love writing. I sure I am going to make a ton of grammatical errors, have some run on sentences, incorrect punctuation, or just ramble on to what you may think of as nonsense.  This is my blog and its not going to be perfect, but then again neither am I!  What would be totally awesome is if this thing actually inspires or encourages you!

Update: We are a family of 4, we have a 2 1/2 year old lab mix, Molly and we foster baby puppies! We are currently on #'s 10 & 11.  They are a mix breed but as sweet as can be. They are 7-8 weeks old names Lola and Liky (pronounced leaky).  I am homeschooling our oldest child, Penelope, who by the way is 5 years old!!! Where did my tiny tater go?!  School is going good. Its a transition for all of us! I will admit that I still need some personal help with organization and time management. I struggle greatly with that.  My husband and I are working towards becoming full time missionaries to Belize! We will take a trip in the spring time to go and pray over the country and seek out where we feel God calling us to be more specifically.  Then in July we will be taking a group plus our 2 children for an outreach/VBS trip.  We will introduce the country and culture to them and let them get an understanding on where we will be and some things we will be doing.  This is going to be an exciting time in our lives. Penelope asks us questions about Belize all the time, like how long will we be there, what are the people like, can we take our stuff, can we take our car, can we take our clothes...like I mean she's ALWAYS asking questions! I LOVE IT! You can see the excitement in her every time she talks about it! PS I LOVE using !!!!! incase you haven't noticed.

We attend Refuge City Church and absolutely love it! We have been here since May 2012! When God calls, you better answer! We have grown so much emotionally, spiritually, and as a family. Literally, we added another child, see above. Currently we meet on Saturday evenings at 5:30pm and its just a wonderful time to just rest and be apart of a large family.  I love it when church "members" are so close that they feel like family!  You should come check it out! I'd love to meet my readers.

Our church will be starting small groups here in about a week or so and I can't wait.  I will be leading a women's group that meets on Thursdays 7pm at a coffee shop. This will be a time to unplug, unwind, get encouraged, and just rest. I know this sounds harsh, but no children allowed!  I love my kids dearly, but I can't completely relax when they are running around screaming or climbing on things.  Deep relationships can't happen when every 5 words you're saying "I'm sorry, hold that thought" or "(insert childs name here) stop jumping off the couch!". Our first meeting will be on October 2 7:00pm Port City Java near Henry's.  Would love for you to join.

Well, I've think I've given you enough to read for now.  I still have plenty to say, but I'll save it for later (hopefully not another 2 years haha)


Thanks for reading this installment of Peanut Butter Wash.....until next time..

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